The Devil's Advocate-Unawares

I had strayed from God without even being aware of it after my mother died in 94'. She died of breast cancer. I left the night she died. I left the living part of my family who still needed me because I was selfish. When I lived alone, I wanted so much to talk to my mother and to tell her that I was sorry and that I didn't mean to ever hurt her. I was so lonely. A friend who lived down the hall from me introduced me to the tarot. At first I wasn't really interested because I didn't understand it. However, one day I got some correct answers from the cards and I was "hooked." A year later I worked for a psychic line. A grave sin, I now know. Earning money from people's problems was completely wrong. My life took a turn for the worse, so I delved into that forbidden territory once again, asking for more answers. Then I asked Jesus why my life was going so badly. I saw one of the people that I had given a reading to, not on the phone but in person, to whom I had charged a fee for my "services." I felt that Jesus wanted me to give back what I had taken. Strangely enough the man appeared at my workplace the next day. I gave him my last $20. He asked me why I had given him back his money and I told him that gifts from God are from God. God would not want me to make a profit from people's problems. God says, "Give what is Caesar's to Caesar and what is God's to God." A gift of prophecy is from God, therefore I should use the gift to serve the Lord. Money made from worldly things (Ceaser), is not what is important to God. He looked at me strangely and told me to keep the money. I bought my friend, who had no money, some groceries with it because the $20.00 belonged to God. This lesson was the beginning of the next. The tarot is a trick by Satan, I believe. You can see the card, touch the card, and the card represents something. And Satan provides "answers" to keep you coming back to them, putting your faith and trust in them instead of in God. Causing one to believe that they can predict the future. I fooled myself into thinking that I was asking Jesus through the cards. Jesus showed me that I was mistaken. One day when "reading" the cards, I asked Jesus to come to me through them. Suddenly I felt his presence, but all of the cards were upside down except for the devil. I knew then that Jesus did not want me tampering with the tarot even if I rationalized by saying, "I'm asking God." That same day I had a dream of someone crying. When the picture cleared it was Jesus sitting next to a rock in the woods. He looked up at me and said, "Why have you forsaken Me, My child?" I feigned ignorance and acted as if I didn't know what He was talking about, but then I saw a tarot card on the ground. He looked at me with such beautiful eyes and I felt so tainted. Nothing is hidden from The Lord. He sees into our hearts and souls. I should have known that. He faded, saying, "Do not forget Me, My child." I awakened crying and later that year, when things began to worsen again, I felt the urge to use the tarot. But then I remembered His words. I took the tarot cards in my hands and with every card turned backwards, I cried and said "I have faith in my God" and tore each card into pieces until the deck was completely destroyed. Satan is the Prince of Lies. He may trick you into believing you are talking to a deceased loved one if you try to call them back from the dead, or give you answers that seem to be the correct ones but then he will attempt to claim your soul. People think the tarot are just cards but as anything else one relies on, it is what that item represents to you and what your belief in it is and how strong that belief is. When you put your faith and confidence into such things you are risking your soul. Darkness comes when we are weak and temptation comes when we are "at the end of our rope." We need to remember that before we take any actions in life. Be it emotions or physical actions or even something that seems as innocent as trying to call back a deceased loved one. They are with you as long as they are in your heart as well as God, but no human, living or dead, can give you the answers to your problems. Our deceased loved one's memory can only help you to remember messages that God has taught us through them when they lived among men. All peace and goodness reside in the Lord, therefore, if this is what you seek you need to find God. Only He knows and He can help. Peace be with you, my friends.

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