Mission Not Complete ~~~~

When I first became a Christian, I felt so strongly that God was telling me I would have a mission to go before the assembly.....I thought He meant right then, and I was a brand new Christian. A new creation in Christ. I prayed, "Lord, I am a baby! I am so new, so young and I have nothing to teach anyone!" Immediately the Lord spoke as I opened the Bible to Jeremiah, and read, "Do not say that you are too young, for I will touch your tongue and give you the words to say..." I was amazed! And I knew it was the Lord. Years later, after working as an RN for so long and speaking of Our Lord to colleagues, patients and anyone who would listen, I became very ill. I contracted a chronic illness and it effectively disabled me. Previously, I had evangelized whenever and wherever possible. Suddenly I was bed-bound, unable to care for myself and, certainly, unable to work. I questioned the Lord concerning my ministry, "Have I completed it?" I asked. "How can You use me like this?" I was too ill to leave the house often for years. I am still recovering. I am still Young and pretty so people, often, do not understand the true extent of my illness. The Lord allowed me to be treated by the best specialists in the field so I am feeling and looking better. However, I wondered.....did He still have a ministry for me? I asked Him last week to use me if He would. I was anxious to do His will and to be busy with His work. I had read a story that told of someone "Placing themselves in the offering plate" for God's work, so I placed myself in the offering plate also. He at once put me to work protecting life and the rights of the weak, the sick, the disabled, the despairing....first with a few senators, then the senate subcommittee, and in October at a university. It is now clear why He allowed me to become ill in the beginning. He wanted to prepare my heart to fight a cause I might not otherwise have been so drawn to. Only a person with this illness and the experience of pain can fully understand and realize how another is suffering. I am grateful that He has said "yes" to His service, and I know now that He meant for me to serve him from the first. I thank Him for His holy will and mercy, and the opportunity to serve Him and to please Him. I know He loves me no matter what I do, and service for Him is a gift to me....thanks be to God.

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