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Psalm 27:10
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| Since I was a little girl and living with a very abusive Father, I have felt God there for me. God taught me how to love my Dad but it took me until the age of 23 to get the courage to tell my earthly Dad. I was very afraid of him and I so needed a Fatherly figure in my life. So I asked God to be that Father. I would, and still do, picture myself as a little girl that has fallen and scraped her knee. In my minds eye, I push open the throne room doors and can almost hear myself walking to the alter of God, where Jesus is on his right hand . I crawl up into his arms and tell him all my problems, all of the time I feel as if he were putting his arms around me and saying That's OK Betty, I love you and I'm on your side, and then everything is just fine. Even when he tells me no or not yet or even wait for a while. I asked him to show me how to love my Dad, even after all the bad things he had done at the church in front of all my friends and teachers and pastor. Everyone was frightened to death of him so no one did a thing and I wore belt marks for weeks and was so hurt. But one day God impressed me to call him and tell him I loved him. I was 23 and so scared and the phone just shook in my hand. But I obeyed and when I told Dad I had something to tell him, he said well, what the h… do you want? I silently prayed for God to give me the words to say for at that moment I felt only fear and no love for him. But God dropped the words into my heart that were perfect. I said, Dad, I want to thank you for all the GOOD THINGS you've done for me. And I realized all Dads do some good things for their children at times and all of a sudden my father started crying. I had never heard my father cry; this was a six foot tall, big man, mechanic who wouldn't hug even his own sons, but would shake their hands only. He was crying and all of a sudden he said, "No one has ever told me that they love me." Every thing that had been between us fell to the floor like shattered glass. Since then our relationship is wonderful. I tell him every time I call that I love him and he does me. He has mellowed a lot and our relationship is a lot better than I could have ever, ever imagined. Thanks to the God who knows how to mend even the worst relationships. In his hands and glad of it, Betty Hutchinson |
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